Here's an interesting story of someone that overcame cancer with only carrot juice.
Monday, December 30, 2013
Saturday, December 28, 2013
NEW funky-groove-instrumental
track AND ebook
(Cancer? What Now?) FREE DOWNLOAD
http://neilstalnaker.bandcamp.com/album/cancer-now-what
Friday, December 27, 2013
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Free Download
Happy Holidays everyone! Some people ask me about the charge($) for this ebook. It's a free download at this site (http://neilstalnaker.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/12/Cancer-Book.pdf ). I have it as a download at another site with Paypal attached, also. The price is $00.01. Yes, 1 cent. If you want to donate and/or buy music that's fine too. If you go to this site to buy my music (http://www.neilstalnaker.bandcamp.com) (which is also a "pay whatever you feel" situation and many have downloaded for free - which is fine), you get the ebook as a free PDF file download when you download the music files. Yeah, I have ongoing medical expenses. I'm on the subway now on my way to a treatment. But, point is, I'm not trying to make any money from this stuff. Just want to get the word out to some people that might possibly need it. In this day and time, an independent musician like myself is not going to make much money from selling CDs and/or downloads. My main goal was/is to compose/record music about my life experience cause its therapy for me. When i get a project finished and post it, its not for self-promotion. Its just a verification to myself that i finished something i started. I'm not planning any LIVE performances anyway. So I'm not trying to build the proverbial fan base. My other goal is to get the music into film. It's moving nicely in that direction. Hope there's not a negative vibe in this message. I just wanna be clear and real.
Love to all of you.
Love to all of you.
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
The First 48 Hours
I remember clearly in 1991 sitting in the doctor's office having stitches removed. The pathology report came in over the fax machine. The doctor was in shock. My wife almost passed out. I just felt numb. Had no experience in my life up to that point to condition my response for that news. Left there and went across town (Baltimore) to meet with a team of doctors. I guess at a point in that meeting the numbness started to wear off. I remember in the evening as we drove on the interstate back to W.Va. I started to have a feeling of being boxed-in. Trapped. I felt like squirming in my seat, restless, while I was trying to drive. Just couldn't make it home that night. We stayed in a hotel and made a few calls to family members. The boxed-in feeling became more intense that night. I started to panic. I felt fear. Couldn't sleep. A relatively healthy mind trapped inside of a sick body. A dying body. I couldn't figure out how to escape.
Over the next 2 days, I cried a lot. I felt like maybe death was seriously confronting me. My overwhelming feeling besides the sheer panic and terror was a profound and deep sadness centered around the thought of being away from my kids.
At some point in those first 48 hours, a calmness swept over me. Of course, I was praying a lot. The thought came to me that this wasn't a death sentence. Maybe the change happened when I let myself completely experience the panic, terror and sadness. Those things eventually lost their power and control over me. Then I knew I could fight this. As long as I continued to resist the situation I was in, the feeling of panic continued. What's the saying? "What we resist persists."
Monday, December 23, 2013
Sunday, December 22, 2013
Cancer? Now What? (NEW eBook)
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On December 16, 2013, I sat in a cafe in Tokyo thinking about
the ordeal with throat cancer over the past two years and the
lingering effects from my first experience with stage IV throat
cancer in 1991. The following is stream of consciousness writing
from an afternoon in Shinjuku (Tokyo).
I hope this gets into the hands of those who can use it immediately...
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